Planting Seeds, Pruning The Vineyard

This story is going to expose me so hard but It's too good not to share So I sleep talk sometimes and apparently my companion told me I was beatboxing in my sleep and so she was like "Hermana....Hermana..." repeating the same thing so that I would stop and so apparently once I heard I started to say sorry a couple of times. But then a few moments later I started beatboxing again. I have NO  memory of this happening.

We had a super cool missionary activity that we got to be apart of. I prepared a 5 minute talk about how I prepared to be a missionary and well they said it was actually 1 minute and so I rushed up there and gave a small speech but the Spirit wooshed into the room with so much strength. (I was so stoked because I love talking and being around youth) This one girl that was 17 came up to me and asked me why I chose to go on a mission (because she was considering it) but then she shared that she has some social anxiety and I was like no way me too! And I told her about the adjusting to missionary life pamphlet and that I think most missions offer resources like counseling now. And now she wants to go on splits with the sisters!! I hope that she decides to go I have so much christlike  love for her already.

I (as in me and my companion) kind of got flamed in interviews. More of a "need for a course correction" but it's all for good. We realized that are friends aren't progressing because they don't really know our purpose as missionaries and the direction we are trying to take them. So we are going to take the time to prune the tree and see who is willing to act, instead of just willing to hear. And I need to also prepare more for our gospel discussion zoom meetings. 

I was reading in a book about Grace and and I realized something amazing: None of my infirmities, setbacks, flaws or outside forces can stop the work of the Lord. God will win the victory. At first I was like "oh wow that brings a lot of hope" but it later sank into my heart. I think that moment I could feel more of Christs's grace and Atonement in my life. Bonds can be fixed. Weaknesses can be turned into strengths. I now understand a bit of what self acceptance and Faith looks like.

We did "Splits" with some english sisters in our area and we happened to find a couple home that speaks spanish... which meant that I taught the whole lesson in Spanish. It actually was a confidence booster because I realized then that I could teach an entire lesson by myself to strangers. Sister Jones could even feel the spirit even though she didn't understand anything I said!! 

My Flight plans home came in September 1st... already??  Now I've switched from "man I wanna go home" to "I need to help at least 1 more soul enter the waters of baptism before I leave" - but I realized later that is not a good mindset because what happens if I try everything I can and it doesn't work out that way? It's not good to put your worth as a missionary on someone else's agency. 

We had a good Sunday full of sweet tender mercies. We had a super short lesson with Gloria (such a Miracle!) And her son gave us rain jackets. I've never had a rain jacket before (that I can remember) so that was cool.

Transfer News, I am staying and My companion is going down to be STL in my first area. I'm excited for her! Hermana Bastian is coming up and i'm excited her her.

The field is white and ready to harvest