Pebbles

Trigger warning: Suicide just in case if some of you want to avoid this email 

Before I get to that story I wanted to share a miracle first. So we had a set lesson with a new friend we made who was from Venesuela and when we got there it was like 5 kids that opened up. We aksed the kids if they could wake up their parents (so cute) and when we were invited to come in, 3 families pulled up in a car and started piling in thungs they recieved from the bishop storehouse. It was so cool that we got to meet these families and we shared a message about how families sre imprtant in God's plan and that when founded on the rock of Jesus Christ, you can find peast in these troubled times. Then we walked oitside and the Myers asked us for a ride and we said "no, we want to nock sround here" and immediately we find this YSA age guy who was interested kn iur message! Then in that moment I felt like we need to make the trek to some friends we haven't seen in a month. But then we have rhis car pull to the side and asks us if they know of anyone that needs food. It was a member family that had recently moved to North Ogden and the wife felt like she needed to donate all of her food, and 5 mats. You guys, they didn't have beds to sleep. Because of those mats, they could sleep and they were able to have dinner that night for 5 adults and 5 kids. She wasn't even supposed to be there either! She almost dropped it off at a church and went looking around on Sunday. There is no doubt in my mind that God was aware of that situation and that we were in the right place at the right time. 

We also got to go to the temple this week and It was a special experience. I know that it is a temple of the Lord and I feel his love so strongly when I go in. 

I got a very difficult call Thursday night feom Elder Mc Claws and some leadership... Juan (his mom is Felica) committed suicide. I am still in a bit of  a mess right now, especially with how close I was with them and the miracles that I got to experience with their family. I wrote a note for him and Felica because I heard that they both accepted a date to be baptized, and Felica but they never got to them. I know that wouldn't have made a difference to whay happened. The apartment where I first met him and his mom is here in J2. We have to see it every time we go to Church. Even though this is not an easy time, I know that there is a life after this earth. I know that he is in the Spirit world learning more about the gospel. I have no answers to the reason why this happened, but I know that Heavenly Father knows him and knows his heart and he is looking out for him. I am also so grateful for the Atonement of Jesus Christ and that he truly understands my suffering and everyone else’s suffering and he offers peace. He offers healing. I wish I can see him and his family right now, but I know that I will have so much joy when I get to see them again, together. I know that Juan was prepared for the next life and I am so grateful that I got to be a part of his life. 

My companion got sick on Saturday (like a 101° fever) and it's killing her that she can't go to our lessons (understandable, we had 5 lessons set up with me.bers that wpuld participate!) But also I got to catch up on an entire transfers worth of journaling. We still plan until like 10:30 and don't get to sleep until like 11:15 and I can do only so much jornaling for my lunch hours so what I did was I would write a title for the paragraph that mentioned a thing that happened in the day so that I could remember what happened and catch up later. It's probably the smartest thing I have done on this mission lol 

Sunday was so sweet. We had 8 friends show up to church! (And 5 are moving away lol) but we had so many visitors come to the ward! Like Hermana Arriagada and her family, Hermana Evangelista, some friends that we were teaching that moved to J4, and probably my favorite part of all, Fenix passed the sacrament for the first time. It made my heart melt!! I never thought that he would ever get to that point. I started passing off my bye-bye book to some members and close missionaries thay I know (The Heiners have been through it all with me since I finished my training) because I didn't know if it would be my last Sunday there. And I hit 11 months that day! It was so sweet, so exciting

Also one friend we are teaching (his name is Alfredo) looks EXACTLY like my uncle. You can take a look at rhe compatison in the emails

Sooo transfer news!! I'm going BACK to hyrum wirh Hermana Groves! Yesssss i am excited but a bit sad that she didn't get to train :( but I am ready for the next transfer ahead of me. #Ihavepacked5timesthismonth 

Hermana Vestel

Also I turn 20 on May 23rd and I hit my year mark on May 30th!! AAAAAAAAAA I am over 60% done with my misison!! I'm going to blink and then I will be home ;)